My father and my relationship was strained until after I went through a divorce and my father drove at least 1000 miles to Florida to pick up my kids and I. So I have created this fantasy earthly father as far as what I believe my Heavenly Father is like to relate to God. I know my father loved me he just had some problems in expressing his love to us children and was rather critical. My brother seemed to do well with that harsh father approach and followed in his footsteps of his wishes of going to college, but my sister was married at 19 years old and I went into a full time missionary group. My sister and I did not quite meet with our father’s approval.
One of my fantasy images of a good father is Commander Adama on the new former series of Battlestar Galactic. I relate to the pilot Starbuck (Kara Thrace) who the new series was a woman. We never quite figured out if Starbuck is really a man Cylon (the machine models that look human) that the creators put in a woman’s body or if she was an angel. That explains it folks, Mary is either a human Cylon former man or a former angel….LOL
I can relate to Starbuck being a good viper pilot and how she had to fight Scarface who was the most tricky Cylon fighter. I’ve had several dreams about fighting an evil man and it’s similar to how Daniel in the Bible had to break through for 21 days in his prayer request to God to fight an evil principality called the Prince of Persia. Instead of fighting in an aircraft, I fight several times down on my knees in prayer for others and my family. Like Daniel, I have felt strength after prayer from I believe it is the angels or the Holy Spirit.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12
Again the one who looked like a man touched me and gave me strength Do not be afraid, O man highly esteemed," he said. "Peace! Be strong now; be strong." When he spoke to me, I was strengthened and said, "Speak, my lord, since you have given me strength." So he said, "Do you know why I have come to you? Soon I will return to fight against the prince of Persia, and when I go, the prince of Greece will come; but first I will tell you what is written in the Book of Truth. No one supports me against them except Michael, your prince. Daniel 10:18-21
During the first episode of Battlestar, the Cylons were attacking them and the ships jumped every 33 minutes; because the Cylons were relentlessly pursuing them. The Cylons were machines so they never get tired. I have the same experience on going through several attacks in my life, and I tell God “I’m a weary soldier God, I can’t take any more of this junk I’m going through in life in trying to serve you at times.” You have to be the strength of my life. It’s like how the Philistines used Delilah to wear Samson down to find the secret of his strength so they could take his power away. I find the same thing that many times the enemy will use people or circumstances to wear me out and weaken me so he can cut off my hair at the weakest moment.
Some of my hair got cut by others when I first lost my husband as far as going through criticism rather than support by others. I find many people in life act like machines rather than human so I can relate to the whole Cylon theme and the Bible says that people will “wax” cold like mannequins in life. I’ve met many mannequins in church.
And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold. Matthew 24:12
Starbuck was good at playing cards and my grandmother and mother taught me poker and Euchre when I was around five years old. My husband was tops when it came to be my Euchre partner. I enjoyed playing against him and winning. I also found many times you have to learn to beat a man at his own game. My husband was like his father as far as a player of sports. My husband only had two weeks of vacation a year, and he would burn it up playing with his guy friends at work going whitewater rafting, skiing or snowmobiling. So I just took off a few times visiting my daughter with his sister in California and left him when the children were young. I find when a guy thinks you are just sitting at home with the kids he is fine, but if you are out having fun without him, he is more likely to go with you the next time, which is he was quick to go to California with me the next visit.
It’s knowing how to give a guy his own medicine, and I’m very good at giving a guy his own medicine.
I can relate to the pilot Starbuck because I was always fighting with boys growing up. I had this windmill punch where I had my arms going in a windmill and I gave the neighbor boy a bloody nose when we got in a fight. Fighting with my brother five years older than me, I finally gave up on that because my brother could beat me up. I had deranged boys when they turned junior high age who were always trying to molest me as neighbors, but I was a good kicker. One time in school, my girlfriend and I beat one of my neighbor boys up when he was lifting up our skirt walking up the stairs since the teachers would not do anything to correct him. We hit him with our huge heavy purses and kicked him. We got him down on the ground and he started crying in the stairwell and he never harassed my friend or me at school again. One neighbor man apologized to me about his deranged behavior at his mother’s funeral, and that is probably the only apology I’ve ever received from a guy in my past, so I was very impressed. I’ve spoken to a women surgery resident physician raised in a hard part of Chicago and she understands what it is to grow up with boys and in surgery competing against men.
Starbuck had this military type mother that was hard on her. Her mother died of cancer like my mother died of cancer. My mother was not abusive like Starbuck’s mother, but my mother had that “suck it up” attitude and told me to quit being a cry baby so I became very hard as nails in life and I don’t remember crying at all until I turned age 16 years old and right before I became a Christian. My mother was not much of a hand holder. When my father would talk about how he had only one pair of overalls he wore to school for a whole week and his mother never gave him much love and affection, my mother would say, “”Let’s get out the violins to give you a pity party.”
Starbuck grew up with that tough attitude in life, but later she had to deal with some things in her past and I had to deal with some things in my past too to move on in a happy relationship with my husband. One was this critical father image. The critical father image carried over to my image of my Heavenly Father and then you become a self-righteous and judging type person even as a Christian.
I like how Commander Adama had faith in Starbuck even when she messed up, and I realize that God has faith in me. Although, I am messed up at times. I consider being single again is a total insanity in my life. I found a scripture that goes along with the insanity. Apparently, Paul was insane too!
If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 2 Cor. 5:13
I like the episode where Commander Adama agrees to give Kara a squadron of viper fighters to rescue a guy she loves on the former planet that got nuked by the Cylons. Her boyfriend is leader of the rebels fighting the Cylons and Starbuck goes into the enemy’s camp to rescue him.
Kara almost married Commander Adama’s son and so Kara was like a daughter to Adama that he never had. He only had two sons. His son died flying a viper as a new pilot. Starbuck (Kara) calls up Adama on her ship and his phone is called “Actual” and she says, “Have I ever thanked you before?” Adama said, “I don’t believe you ever have so this will be a first.” Kara says, “I just want to say thanks”…..instead of Commander Adama it’s thank you God. Commander Adama says, “Come back in one piece and that will be thanks enough, Good hunting.”
Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. 1 Thess. 5:18
That tender moment between Kara and Adama is really between God and me. Thank you for my former spouse for the amazing love we shared for 15 years and bringing him as a joy into my life even though the time was too short, and thank you for my salvation, thank you for my children and the many blessings you have bestowed on my life. But most of all thank you that you are a loving heavenly Father and you know my current needs!
And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven Matthew 18:3-4
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17
These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs. Luke 12:30
The son who died as a viper pilot was Jesus, only it was intentional to fight the evil one in our place. He lived the perfect life for me. He fought the perfect fight for me.
Therefore he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them. Such a high priest meets our need--one who is holy, blameless, pure, set apart from sinners, exalted above the heavens. Hebrews 7:25-26
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