Friday, April 18, 2014

Today My Account Representative (Jesus) Paid My Debts in Full and Sweeten the Account

It’s nice to have a mediator in life – that can happen with problems in being charged too much for an account bill, problems in marriage or problems with teen children. It can be an account representative, a pastor or a counselor who helps mediate problems. It can even be a good defense attorney if we have to go to court. If we are having problems with a teacher for a grade, and we don’t see eye-to-eye with our professor, we may need a third party.

I woke up this morning in a “business” frame of mind and I was opening my bills to pay them, and I was livid when I saw my new Xfinity bill was over $400.00. I got back to back bills within a week.

The whole purpose I changed from AT&T was to get my bills down which I thought $180 a month was too high and I did not even have many channels like HBO. I also got a land phone line as part of the package. I try to keep two renters in my house, and so I have to keep cable and wireless Internet for them and my daughter does her college homework at my house.

Immediately, I heard that scripture in the back of my mind, “I will bless the Lord at all times his praise shall continually be in my mouth.”

I had choice is I could stay angry (be angry and sin not) or thank the Lord. I gritted my teeth and thanked the Lord. I called the account representative who set up my account here n my neighborhood. He called their business office, and straightened out the problem. I also got $10.00 knocked off my bill down to $136.00/month.

It’s nice when our account representative “sweetens” the package.

Even God gets angry, it is what we do with our anger. It tells us that God is “slow” to wrath.

What if God, although choosing to show his wrath and make his power known, bore with great patience the objects of his wrath--prepared for destruction? Romans 9:22

Jesus is our mediator between God and man. He was the high priest that not only offered the sacrifices of a life and ministry to God, but also his very own life. He was the sacrificial lamb that God provided in place of Isaac when Abraham was willing to give God his son. Only that lamb was a “representative” of the lamb to come.

Isaac spoke to Abraham his father and said, "My father!" And he said, "Here I am, my son." And he said, "Behold, the fire and the wood, but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?" 8Abraham said, "God will provide for Himself the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.

When Jesus said, “it is finished” --he settled the account, he paid our debts in full.
I also like those added sweeten packages from God, which are “all things.”

He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?  Romans 8:32

Most people have a health care mediator or they have a Will with an executor to carry out their wishes since they are not here to carry out those wishes. The New Testament or the Will and wishes of God.

Why the Law then? It was added because of transgressions, having been ordained through angels by the agency of a mediator, until the seed would come to whom the promise had been made. Now a mediator is not for one party only; whereas God is only one. Is the Law then contrary to the promises of God? May it never be! For if a law had been given which was able to impart life, then righteousness would indeed have been based on law.… Galatians 3:20-21

Moses interceded for a generation of people, but although God promised for them to go into the promise land of milk and honey, they did not mix that prophesy (word from God) with faith and they all died in the wilderness except Joshua and Caleb.

For we also have had the good news proclaimed to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because they did not share the faith of those who obeyed. Hebrews 4:2

I would not want to leave earth not having my debts settled with God, with man or even if I sinned against my own self. It says if we commit sexual immorality we sin against our own selves.

Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. 1 Cor. 16:18

God’s word tells us “whatever is not of faith is sin.” That can be a whole array of things in my life.

I don’t have faith to eat spicy food or curry powder because one time at Indian Palace and my husband thought he was going to have to take me to the hospital since I had ingestion for hours due to Acid Reflux.

Paul talked about not having faith to eat certain foods.

But whoever has doubts is condemned if they eat, because their eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin. Romans 14:23

“Everything” not of faith is sin.

I don’t have the faith to be single, but I don’t have the faith to marry a man yet. If you don’t want to give an account to a marriage partner (have a check in policy or have them tell you what to do probably not a good idea to get married). It’s a lot like a job where you have some managers in the office a lot wanting you do to certain things and then some gone. I find that some managers or a spouse are more needy than others.

I need grace in these situations where I don’t have faith in which I could make a list of. Before trying to dive into another relationship and I’m one of those people who like to put my toes in the water. I don’t want to end up diving into a lake like Joni Eareckson Tada and having a spinal injury because I don’t know what is in the lake.

Part of the interview process in dating or finding a job is to see how “comfortable” we will be with a new manager. I heard that a lady or gentleman is a person who makes you feel comfortable at all times in their presence. So I like a real gentleman. It's a person in marriage or management, I'm the most comfortable being around in life on a regular basis.

I heard a good sermon recently how Jesus is approachable. Little children liked to climb in his lap and put their hands on his face, and probably fondle his hair. That is how it should be in coming to Jesus with our prayer request. It tells us to come “boldly” before the throne of grace.

Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16

Who wants to serve a God or be in a marriage with a man who is tyrant?

I like it that my two-year grandson likes to be around me. He is always trying to get me to sit in the rocker with him, but than when I go to sit down, he moves. He likes to play these games with me. I guarantee my grandson does not want me sitting on him!. Nor do I want God sitting on me either! LOL

For there is one God, and one mediator also between God and men, the man Christ Jesus, 6who gave Himself as a ransom for all, the testimony given at the proper time.… 1 Timothy 2:5
You have come to Jesus, the one who mediates the new covenant between God and people, and to the sprinkled blood, which speaks of forgiveness instead of crying out for vengeance like the blood of Abel. Hebrews 12:24
For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new covenant, that those who are called may receive the promised eternal inheritance--now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant. Hebrews 9;15
But in fact the ministry Jesus has received is as superior to theirs as the covenant of which he is mediator is superior to the old one, since the new covenant is established on better promises. Hebrews 8:6

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

God's Rest

It’s great at times when I have had to take a connecting airline flight in travel, and things just worked and everything went smoothly.  Life just flows.  I did not have to run to the connecting flight.  I made it in time.  I want to make my “connecting” flights in life with the right person.

When I was dating my former spouse it was like going through all green lights through downtown Indianapolis.  We were on a roll and it was amazing.  Everything just worked in our relationship.

I’ve never experienced anything like that since in dating the last six years.  It was like I was dating a man who had divine favor from God.   I know from the start of my relationship that my former husband wanted to get remarried.   

A major problem I’ve faced now at my age is that several Christian men I’ve dated for a longer period of time were not interested in finding a wife, they were interesting in getting involved. 

He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord.  Proverbs 18:22

At times life is a struggle.  I struggle with relationships and finding the right job.   We are to take the yoke of Jesus.  Jesus yoke is light.  It’s the same in a marriage as far as letting God work in a relationship as far as taking on lighter yoke.   It’s disappointing to hear about marriages falling apart.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:29

Can we really “do” anything for God?   The Bible does talk about being co-laborers with God.  If we are bearing fruit by abiding in the vine, fruit does not have to strain to come out of vine – it comes out naturally.  We are to bear fruit whether it’s spiritual fruit or sharing our faith.

Jesus said “without him we can do nothing.’

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.  John 15:5  
For all who have entered into God's rest have rested from their labors, just as God did after creating the world. Hebrews 4:10

Even when Paul said he labored harder than anyone else, but it was not Paul it was the grace of God in him.   

But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them--yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me. 1 Cor. 15:1

God is the creator of the universe.  There is one scripture that says, “Is there anything too hard for you?”  Sarah laughed at God when the angel told her she was going to have a child.

Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return to you at the appointed time next year, and Sarah will have a son." 

Jeremiah said the same thing:

"O Sovereign Lord! You made the heavens and earth by your strong hand and powerful arm. Nothing is too hard for you!  Jeremiah 32:17

What I found in life the times I’ve been used by the Lord is when I’ve said, “God I’ll do whatever you want me to do and go wherever you want me to go.” It was like Isaiah said, “Lord send me.”

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8 

I said that when I was a young Christian and soon afterwards joined a full time Christian missionary group.  I’ve not always found “flexible” people in life or a flexible marriage partner.

I was talking recently to an HR manager of a potential company that I sent my resume and she said they were looking for flexible people.  I worked at a hospital where I worked for 17 director and the CEO and everyone wants something in a different way.  I was able to organize the work and set priorities on who got their work first.

Same at my last position as far as working for several students, faculty and managers, what got confusing at times is multiple managers wanting things at the same time.

In life, I’m just making sure there are not multiple managers running my life or multiple voices.  Same with a relationship as far as finding a person who marches to the same drum in life I march to which is the drum of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Many people are marching to their own drum which is always getting their own way all the time.  They don’t know how to submit to God in their life and do his will.

Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7
Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Job 22:21
Part of knowing God’s will is really understanding his word.  It makes ministry a lot easier, when it’s in our heart rather than in our head.  Knowledge puffs up but charity edifies.

Now about food sacrificed to idols: We know that "We all possess knowledge." But knowledge puffs up while love builds up.

Anyway, even if one person does their part as saying, "God I want whatever you want in my life and I'll go wherever you want me to go" at least we do our part in life.

What I think is rather funny is how some people are afraid to pray that because they think that God will send them to a foreign country on a mission.  I've always wanted to do that all my life and I've never had a leading to go.  I even claimed that scripture where it says, "Ask me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession. Psalm 2:8"

I claimed India and then I ended up working at a university with a lot of students from India.  Same with having a roommate from China.  So although I have not gone to another country, I have found that people from other countries have come to me.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

My Dog is Bigger Than Your Dog..

We live in a “competitive” environment, but we are not to compete with our neighbor.  We are to love our neighbor as ourselves.  It sort of reminds me of that song,

My dog's faster than your dog,
My dog's bigger than yours.
My dog's better 'cause he gets Ken-L Ration,
My dog's better than yours.

We as believers are not in competition with each other.   I’ve had several people complain to me they had a relative or someone they know who lost their wife or husband in death, and they were dating at seven months.  They thought that was horrid.  

Although, I would not recommend dating divorced or after death for at least one year, we are not to put ourselves as a measuring stick against each other.

We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. 2 Cor. 10:12

Since it says that it’s not “wise” to our compare ourselves than I’ll concur to try to stay away from it since wisdom is something to be desired.

How much better to get wisdom than gold, to get insight rather than silver! Proverbs 16:16

Same when it comes to getting over certain addictions such as getting an operation to lose weight (food addiction), smoking cigarettes, drugs or alcohol.  I don’t really see any difference.  For some it seems to be sexual sin. Some people seem to be better at celibacy than others. 

I’ve heard some people say “if that is a Christian I don’t want to be one as far as something a person does they don’t agree with.”  I used that one too when I was a non-believer.  Jesus said, “You that are without sin cast the first stone.”  We are quick to make comparisons among ourselves and throw stones.

I think a reason that adultery is mentioned in the Ten Commandments because it involves another innocent party whereas sexual immorality is not in the Ten Commandments, but it is mentioned as sin in both the Old Testament and in the New Testament to abstain and flee sexual immorality.

Instead we should write to them, telling them to abstain from food polluted by idols, from sexual immorality, from the meat of strangled animals and from blood. Acts 15:20
Dear friends, I urge you, as foreigners and exiles, to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul. 1 Peter 2:11
But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. Ephesians 5:3

Jesus warned Peter that as he was older he was going to go places that he did not want to go and one was to die for his faith.  When Peter wanted to know what John was going to do, Jesus told him what John does was Jesus business that he was to “come and follow him.”

So Peter seeing him said to Jesus, "Lord, and what about this man?" Jesus said to him, "If I want him to remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me!" Therefore this saying went out among the brethren that that disciple would not die; yet Jesus did not say to him that he would not die, but only, "If I want him to remain until I come, what is that to you?"…John 21:22

Joel Osteen did a good sermon about running our own race recently.  Being happy with the road that God has us on.  The Lord spoke to me that he has me on a detour road since I lost my spouse.  I heard a good message recently on it’s like a GPS device that at times we have a “course correction” in life to go on a different hi-way.

I’ve seen widows get remarried like Ruth in the Bible that were younger and then I’ve seen some like Naomi who decided to focus on grandchildren and they were too old to get remarried.  I’ve seen some that had more of a difficult time like Johnny Cash in losing his wife, and they only lasted a few weeks or a few years.

I’ve seen people divorced decide like I did that I wanted help with raising my four young daughters and then I’ve met some people that raised their children on their own and are seeking to get remarried now that their children are grown. 

We are warned “not” to use a measuring stick (ourselves) against others.  I run into this problem with people on a continual basis.  It becomes judgmental. 

"Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn others, or it will all come back against you. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. Luke 6:37

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

I Want to Be a Doritos Stuck in Satan's Throat

I was listening to this comedian last night say how he wanted to be a Doritos stuck in Satan's throat.  I thought it was especially funny after going on a job interview with seven people on a committee when they did not offer me any water.

At first, I was sort of freaked out that I was going to get choked up or dry mouth in the interview and be embarrassed so I got hit with a mild anxiety attack. I started praying under my breath.

I never understood anxiety attacks before but I sure do now.  In the past, when I would try out for show choirs and cheer leading in high school, I would freeze up in front of people.  It took several years for me to get up and lead worship with my guitar and I prefer to have another person lead it with me.  Singing does not bother me, it's singing and playing.  I find it's easier to do one or the other.

Hard to walk and chew gum at the same time....LOL

It was hard to sing in front of the homeless without my backup keyboardist on Friday.  Moses was the same way, he focused on his lack of speaking ability.  I talked to a man bound by alcohol.  I've seen people delivered immediately and some people healed gradually..

Jesus said he had all authority and we have power through the Holy Spirit (Acts 1:8).  He told me although he has wanted to commit suicide that he lives to drink.  Instead of drinking and eating to live, his addiction keeps him going in life.

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." Acts 1:8

It's neat to see God come through despite our fears and failings and even our weaknesses.  God knew that Adam and Eve were going to fall and several times in the Bible it refers to how God planned to send his son even before the world was created. So although that movie Noah twists around the reason for the flood, God's idea was to preserve a seed through David to send Jesus. Even in Adam and Eve's failing--and mishap, God gave a prophesy.

God chose him as your ransom long before the world began, but he has now revealed him to you in these last days. 1 Peter 1:20

And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your offspring and hers; he will crush your head, and you will strike his heel." Genesis 3:15 

Paul learned that in his weaknesses he was made strong in Christ.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Cor. 12:9

The law was given by Moses, grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.  Most people look in the Old Testament and realize there is no way we can live like that so they had to trust in the blood of bulls and goats if they sinned because if they broke one rule, than they were guilty of breaking the whole law.   They had to continually offer the blood of bulls and goats each year when now Christ has cleansed us forever.

We put our continual trust (our faith) in the blood of Jesus Christ who washes away our sin.  Not only once and for all (it is finished on the cross) but also it cleanses our conscience daily of any dead works. 

I like the way it calls it “dead works.”

how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without blemish to God, purify our conscience from dead works to serve the living God. Hebrews 9:14

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Making Light Bulbs

It’s hard to go to church anymore at times.  I like listening to several ministers on Christian television and it’s so edifying.  It’s because a single ministry I was involved with for three years that had many socials during the holidays and many events, the funding was cut and it flopped.  That happened to two single ministries I was attending.

One that was going for 11 years.  Now, I’m back at churches with more focus on married couples, but not very many single ministries. I question God –Lord why do I go to churches where a pastor does not care about widows or singles?  

Some single groups I've gone to seemed rather unbalanced with a bunch of women and just a few men.  The one I'm talking about was run by a full time single pastor and it was a strong ministry at one time.  Some people have told me a while back they had JRM which ran 200-300 singles here in Indy. 

I can remember when my husband and I got married we got married through a single's pastor at Chapel Rock and they had around fifty singles in attendance at that one group.  We did not meet at that ministry, but I attended there and it flopped after that pastor left.

It’s a spiritual problem and how can Jesus come back just for the married couples?  Are all these single people that are a large part of the population going to be left behind when Jesus comes?  

Rather than seeing single’s as a ministry, many churches are ran more like a business and singles are not profitable.  It’s the first ministry to go financially, and they don’t want to deal with the drama of singles who get in relationships.  I realize I’ve been “picking up” intercession of many singles and widows in Indy as far as my discouragement is also other single’s discouragement in Indianapolis here. 

Part of the ministry of an intercessor is to birth ministries.  I have a friend who had a dream that she had five babies and they instantly were sitting up and she was feeding them.  I know that was the birth of dreams in her life.

We can’t solve “spiritual” problems in a natural way.  It’s a matter to take to prayer as far as the ministry of singles and widows. 

So he said to me, "This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the Lord Almighty. Zech 4:6

Some of us are like Thomas Edison Christians.  John Townsend and Henry Cloud Christian psychologists said if you date 200 women than you are just one step closer to finding the right woman or light bulb.

If your light bulb breaks, you run out and replace a light bulb.  I found that was easy to do with a divorce.  I had some “resistance” in finding a mate, but I got outside my comfort zone at 35 years old by placing a single’s ad to meet my husband.   I remember singing that song to victory at the time by Amy Grant, “Love Will Find a Way.”  Or God will find a way after divorce. 

So when I lost my light bulb which is my spouse through death six years ago, I’ve done the same thing that worked before, I’ve been putting myself out there.  Like before first with single’s groups, Christian and secular and than trying online dating. 

At 52 years old, it’s been “quite” the challenge as far as finding a Christian man even on Christian Mingle who wants a full time relationship.  Many have just said that they want to have fun – with no intention of getting married.  It sort of reminds me of a part time job as far as no benefits.

I was looking at that scripture and I was thinking how many times men compartmentalize their life and when David said, “Although I make my bed in hell behold you are there.”  It says there is no rest in hell so I know there is no bed in hell.   
I believe David may have been talking about his adultery.   That like Paul said, “In him we move, live and have our being.”  God is the one who holds this whole universe together.  Like the song says, “He’s got the whole world in his hand.”

If I go up to heaven, you are there. If I make my bed in hell, you are there. Psalm 139:8

I can’t separate my spirituality from my sexuality.

I have found as a believer that many times I’m trying to solve a spiritual problem in a natural way. 

I remember when I had a rebellious 13-year old step-daughter come to live with my husband and I four months after I was married.  It was because her mother said she could not handle her.  I was not up for the challenge.  I found getting adjusted to a new husband was enough with my four children and a full time step son.  I read books, went on step-family groups and went to counseling with my husband for one year.

Let me save you $150 per session to what the “conclusion” I came out with is that with step children, I had to give unconditional love.  That is no matter what they said or did, that I loved them unconditionally.  I find that is the same when it comes to anyone on this planet that they need unconditional love.

God sent his prophets and they were stoned and killed to straighten up Israel, and God sent his son and he was beaten and killed, but in the process he sent his Holy Spirit that lives inside of us and now we have that same unconditional love that God showed at the cross.  That God died for his worst enemy.  Rather than fighting Goliath, we would even love a Goliath!  We love our enemies.

And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Romans 5:5

I would not want my children to die for my worst enemy.   Many times even Christian parents give conditional love that is based on us pleasing them in some way.   As long as you go to the college they want us to go to, as long  we have the same political party, as long as you have all A’s on our report card, the list goes on and on.  As long as we meet a certain set of conditions or standards than I will love you. Rather than I accept you and love you as you are.  Not based on what you do or don’t do.  Just as I am.

I have had friends that disappoint me at times by not keeping their word.  A long time ago I heard that if we don’t keep our word, we won’t believe that God keeps his word (fulfills his promises to us).  So I’ve been careful not to put myself out there and not be able to keep my word—my commitments.

I can remember if I ever told my son anything as a child and we did not go to the grocery store and buy him a toy, you would think the whole earth ended as far as breaking my promise to my son so I know how important it is to keep my word.

It tells us that God watches over his word to perform it.  Many times, I hold God’s word up to him like Corrie ten Boom did, “God your word says this.”

For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His. You have acted foolishly in this. Indeed, from now on you will surely have wars." 2 Chronicles 16:9

Then the Lord said to me, “You have seen well, for I am watching over my word to perform it.” Jeremiah 1:12

I’m sure when Corrie was stuck in that German concentration camp and she lost her father and her sister, it was hard to forgive the people who hurt her loved ones.  I too at times have a hard time forgiving God for allowing my parents, sister and husband to die, but someone gave me a word that really helped me.

They told me that if God sees every sparrow who dies and falls to the ground how much more does he care for us.  The Lord told me when my husband first died that he is taking care of “all” my treasures in heaven.

If God cares so much for sparrows, we know that he cares for us, no matter what bad we have gone through in life.  He sent his only son for us.

He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8:32

What is the price of two sparrows--one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. Matthew 10:29

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

A Kick the Bucket List

One of my favorite lines in the movie, “Bucket List” is when Jack Nicholas looks in the mirror and he is going through vomiting from chemotherapy, he was given six months to live at the most, and he says, “Some lucky guy got the heart attack.” 

Only the actor Jack Nicolas to me is a person who can pull that line off.  It’s making light of a tragic situation.  It’s saying, “I did not ask to be in this situation.”

It’s when a tragedy happens in our life and it steals our innocence.  There is a difference from tragedy and trials/hardships.  A woman explained that to me where her son was molested by a family friend they trusted.  
Then there was a person who she thought was a shepherd in her life, but started condemning her and making her feel guilty that she had brought this calamity on herself.   She realized later he was a wolf.

Job called his friends miserable comforters, but the Lord lead Job to pray for his friends, because they were only citing their religious error of the time which is calamity comes in our lives due to sin in our lives.

We have the example of when David and all his men lost their wives, children and possessions.  At first they cried and cried and then they wanted to kill David.  David encouraged himself in the Lord and then he took the men that were strong enough to go with him to take back what the enemy had stolen from him. 

Abraham too when he rescued his nephew Lot and his family.  In fact, because of Abraham, Lot’s life was saved twice.  God told Abraham to leave his house so Lot ended up coming along.

There is also this one part in the movie that the main character Carter played by Morgan Freeman says, “When you go to heaven can you say that you lived your life in joy, and that you brought joy to others?”

I can’t think of anything better than bringing  joy to others in life.  It’s like “Make a Wish Foundation” that bring joy to children who are terminally ill.  I think it’s wonderful to have a customer or a person say to me, “You made my day today.”

My former spouse said that I brought joy to his heart after the trauma of losing a son and his college sweetheart - going through a divorce. He squeezed every bit of fun out of life from sun up to sun down.  He lived his life with passion knowing his chronic asthma could make his life short.

Many people need their souls restored in life due to trauma.  When I first became a Christian I prayed that scripture Psalm 23 -- the Lord restores my soul because of a breakup of my son's father and me.  Same prayer when I went through a divorce. 

It tells us in God's word in John "Beloved I wish you prosper and be in health even as your soul prospers." So it seems that our soul prospering affects our financial and physical well being. 

Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well. 3 John 1:2

I can say right now that "It is well with my soul."  It may not always be well with my flesh and far as I'm not in a marriage relationship like I wanted to be with my spouse, and it's not well with my circumstances as far as I went from a two-person income and now I'm down to zero, but it's well with my soul.

When I worked at IUPUI (university), there was a former faculty person like that who had such a bright sense of humor when I first started there – there were many days she made my day.  Her name was Mary Ellen Reed, she passed away from cancer a few years ago.

Another faculty person who made my day right after my husband passed away was my computer graphic professor Dan Baldwin.  His corny jokes actually made me feel better going to class 2 l/2 weeks after I lost my spouse. 
Laughter has been one of the best medicines I’ve had.

A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.  Proverbs 17:22

I remember watching a lot of comedy with my parents.  Red Skelton, Jackie Gleason, Carol Burnett, Laugh-in, W.C. Fields, The Little Rascals, The Three Stooges, and I Love Lucy.  I always liked slap stick comedy and read the cartoon section in the Indianapolis Star as a child. 

I think it’s interesting because I had just rededicated my life to Christ as far as seeking a closer walk with God by sharing my faith more when I lost my spouse three months later.  It was like a slap in the face and rather discouraging, but I did not let a tragic situation in my life take me away from sharing my faith.

The Lord told me he has me on a detour road since I lost my husband so I’m seeking him for what he has called me to do.  What was neat about being married to my husband is that he encouraged me to follow my dreams to finish my degree in college and ministries for the Lord I wanted to get involved in which was a teen prison ministry.  He bought me a amplifier and electrified my guitar for my music ministry.

When Paul said that it’s better to be single to serve the Lord since it’s without distraction, it can be better unless we have a person who understands us serving God. 

When God called people out it was usually like Moses wanted Aaron and far as Paul and Barnabas were called out together as a team for the gospel.

While they were worshiping the Lord and fasting, the Holy Spirit said, "Set apart for me Barnabas and Saul (Paul) for the work to which I have called them." Acts 13:2

Faith is trusting God even when we don’t understand all the answers to those “why” questions.  Why did this tragedy happen to me? 

It tells us that the life we live, live by the faith of the son of God who loved us, and gave his life for us.

My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20

I started working on a kick the bucket list six years old as far as I jumped the highest bungy jump in the world in Queenstown, New Zealand in  2009 which I always wanted to bungy jump, and I learned to scuba diving so I could dive at the Great Barrier Reef in Australia when two of my adult children lived there for three years.

There also have been several single ministries I have been involved with as far as feeding the homeless, leading worship for singles and hosting single socials at my house.  I’ve been living my life now like these are my last days. The minister Kerry Shook said that when we are ready to die, than we are truly ready to live.