Keira Knightley's new film, Anna Karenina

I rented this new movie over the weekend, because I like the star who played in Pirates of the Caribbean -- Keira Knightley's new film, Anna Karenina.  I got upset at the ending because she committed adultery, this was back in the 1873 to 1877 in the periodical The Russian Messenger, and she was shunned from society.  Then her lover cheated on her, and she threw herself in front of a train leaving a son around 9-years old with her husband and a 3 or 4-year old daughter conceived through her lover.

This movie reminds me of this book I had to read in high school called the Scarlet Letter.

First of all, I did not like that men could commit adultery and society thought nothing of it (he is just a man).  I don't believe that God thinks "he is just a man." I don’t see that with Samson, David or Solomon.  #2 if the lover cheated with her when she was married she is stupid to believe he would be faithful to her, and #3 why would you throw yourself in front of a train when you have two children that are looking to you for guidance? 

Suicide was a way of punishing herself and that is what I believe Judas did - he punished himself by killing himself rather than accept Christ's forgiveness put on the cross of his betrayal of him.  When we are forgiven in Christ it’s unconditional love.  All she had to do was accept God's forgiveness whether society or her husband accepted her back or not, which her husband was willing to take her back.   I’ve not ever desired to cheat on a husband, but I can understand why some women do as far as men at times who act very aloof (married to their jobs), cold or indifferent to a woman’s needs.  There are some men that start out romantic and then become emotionally unavailable later in marriage.

The only time I’ve been tempted with suicide was when I was 16 years old, but I was too scared of the afterlife.  The enemy lied to me that my parents did not care.  They were older because when I was born my father was 40 years old and he was rather harsh at times.  My brother went away to college, my best girlfriend moved out of state, I had problems with my boyfriend and broke up with him, and I felt alone.  I ended up seeking God in my life to find out if he was real and praying that if he was real to show me the way.

Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me. Psalm 27:10

I’ve heard of several people who have killed themselves over rejection from a person and I’ve known a few acquaintances who have killed themselves.  I think most of it was abandonment problems because of feeling that way as a child when their father left their mother. As far as feeling alone, I have felt alone many times the last five years since I lost my husband.  David said he felt alone in his affliction too. 

Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. Psalm 25:16

I find now that I lost the love of my life it’s not been thinking about a new relationship that keeps me going, but the desire to fulfill God’s will in my life.  That He is my plan and purpose in life.  I want to have love and sex again, but I recognize that these gifts (sex and love) are gifts from God.

Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain. Psalm 127:1
Whosoever finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of the Lord. Proverbs 18:22
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Because of the Holy Spirit, we are never truly alone, even though God told Adam it was not good for man to be alone (Genesis 2:18) as far as now he dwells inside of us.  When Paul was left alone, he said the Lord strengthened him.  In fact, Paul got in strife with Barnabas because John Mark left him and refused to trust him again.

At my first defense, no one came to my support, but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion's mouth.  2 Timothy 4:16-17

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Duet 31:8

And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:20