Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I Need Angels as a Single Woman in My Life

I can picture us singing the Hallelujah chorus in heaven!  This was put together by the Opera Company of Philadelphia as one of the 1000 Acts of Culture with people throughout the store singing it: http://www.creativeminorityreport.com/2010/11/awesome-pop-up-hallelujah-chorus-at.html

As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Roman 8:36-37
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 2 Cor. 4:17


This morning when I was getting ready to leave the house for work, I could hear water gushing in the basement.  A pipe had busted from pressure and the sub-pump was continually running.  I got the water shut off at the main valve, but the sub-pump kept running with the water spilling out all over the basement from the pressure.  I did get a hold of the contractor who installed my water purification/softener system unit a few months ago to come fix the pipe that was not tight enough.  I was aggravated trying to find his phone number that was not listed in 411 directory, but I finally found his number from an invoice and asked him to come over (after leaving a voice mail).  I get overwhelmed about these situations in life as a single woman. I prayed that God would help me reach the contractor so we would not have to go without water in the house for long.

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. John 16:33
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, James 1:2
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, Romans 5:3


Consider it pure joy, be of good cheer and rejoice in our sufferings.  There are days you are going to wake up and a tree fell on your car, your house, or maybe the tree fell on your life, but in this world it is going to happen.  It’s not like I get up and I expect today I’m going to go through bad things, but I know as an overcomer, there is an enemy and he is trying to steal my joy and my happiness in life.  Satan is the author of evil and he likes to heap suffering, pain, distress, affliction on us.

strengthening the disciples and encouraging them to remain true to the faith. "We must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom of God," they said. Acts 14:22
Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; 2 Cor. 6:4


My daughter Sandy did not know about my morning and that I was two hours late to work, but she texted me she had made extra chili and that she wanted to know if she could bring it by my work for my lunch and she also brought me a bottle of water.  God knew I needed an angel of encouragement today.  God sends angels to encourage or bring a message.  For Daniel the angel came to say that God had heard his prayer that took 21 days to get through.  This lets us know that some of prayer requests are more of a struggle than others:


Then he continued, "Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them, But the prince of the Persian kingdom resisted me twenty-one days. Then Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me, because I was detained there with the king of Persia. Daniel 10:12-13


The scriptures I hold to as a Christian as Daniel did not give up in his prayer life:

Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. Luke 18:1
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Galatians 6:9


We take photos to remember fun memories.  It’s hard for me to look at pictures of my family at former Christmas times and remember I had so much happiness for over 14 years in married life and how much the enemy hates that I have any happiness now at all.  It seems that is what the enemy tries to steal the most in my life is any future of being happy.  He can’t steal joy.   Joy comes from being in the presence of God and I spend a lot of time seeking God.  In fact, I updated my online dating profile to say I have 0 TV shows I watch because I’m too busy to watch a regular TV show.   Happiness is based upon circumstances of life; joy is a fruit of the spirit.  You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11


Life sometimes can be unfair, but God’s loving-kindness is better than life.   I’m counting on God’s loving-kindness in my life.  Because your loving kindness is better than life, my lips shall praise you.  Psalm 63:3


I heard the story of Tear Soup and watched a video on people coming over and being able to “weep with those who weep” and make tear soup with you as you fill up kettles with your tears.  The Bible talks about God having a bottle of our tears.  Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: [are they] not in thy book? Psalm 56:8
  
I’m currently in the process of making fun soup.  I’m looking for those people who know how to encourage each other and enjoy life to the fullest.  There are several special ingredients that go into making fun soup, they include: being thankful, thinking positive thoughts, a good report like Joshua and Caleb we can take the promise land instead of seeing the giants, refraining from speaking evil against others, not judging others, believing in God’s love and goodness, and giving mercy and grace to others.


Of all the people in the Bible, I identified mainly with Mary the mother of Jesus, because she found herself in a predicament because of God as a single woman.  She was pregnant with a child from the Holy Spirit and who was going to believe her?  Certainly not her parents or Joseph who she was promised in marriage.  There are times I’ve obeyed the Lord in waiting on him and I found myself in a predicament.  An angel did not appear to Joseph at the same time.  Mary went to Elizabeth for encouragement and I’m looking for encouragement from my sisters in the Lord.  Mary stayed with Elizabeth for about three months and then returned home. Luke 1:56


Joseph was a just man and he did not want to see Mary possibly stoned for adultery so he was going to put her away privately.  Because Joseph her husband was a righteous man and did not want to expose her to public disgrace, he had in mind to divorce her quietly. Matthew 1:19


That was a time that Mary had to walk on her own.  God did not choose for Mary to walk entirely on her own, God wanted Jesus to be raised with Mary having a husband.  God needed Joseph as part of the plan as a provider and protector of Mary and Jesus, getting Mary on a donkey to Bethlehem where Jesus was to be born, and fleeing to Egypt before Herod could kill him. Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!" Luke 1:45


Even though Mary was highly favored of God she went through struggles in life with riding a donkey to Bethlehem nine months pregnant where there was no room for them to stay so they ended up spending the night in a stable, having to flee to Egypt and live, being widowed in losing Joseph and the natural death of losing the son of man – Jesus.  Jesus made sure that Mary was taken care of which was by John since Jesus was the eldest son and God watches over widows and the fatherless -- God is close to the broken hearted.  The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18


God is our husband.  Over and over in my life I’ve seen God come through in my life as my husband.  For your Maker is your husband--the LORD Almighty is his name--the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. Isaiah 54:5


When my tire fell apart on the interstate this summer, it did not blow the inner tube when I was on I70 with my boat and I drove it with the tire flapping to get to the boat place from the far Westside of Lizton to the east side of town off Post and 38th Streets.  The boat people were amazed that the tire did not flatten.  When I was younger and had flat tires due to nails with my children in the car, I would pray (before they had cell phones) that God would send me the right person to help me.  Paul suffered ship wrecks, we suffer flat tires.


I had a dream recently that I was to perform in front of a large audience a song with two other women, but I did not know my 2nd soprano part and I had not memorized the words to the song we were performing.  I did not want to give the performance and these two women were coaxing me to sing with them anyway.  It was a reminder of when I was in 5th grade that my choir teacher had me as a 2nd soprano for the song “Tender Shepherd” but I flubbed in practice miserably in front of the students.  She then had me sing a solo to the “Sweetheart Tree” and I did a wonderful performance.  So I know the Lord was speaking to me that sometimes he calls me to walk solo until I can find a person I can harmonize with. 


I harmonized well with my husband for 15 years and he did not just magically come along like some Christians believe that God does everything for you.  God is in this process of dating with me.  I met my husband through a single’s ad so there was some effort on my part in screening and dating 26 guys to meet the right person and I’ve being going through the same struggle in life all over again only this time instead of being divorced it was through death.  God and I are co-laborers together.   We are God's coworkers. You are God's field. You are God's building. 1 Cor. 3:9


My life is Déjà vu at times (history repeats itself) and my husband’s aunt lost three spouses so I’m sure she felt her life was Déjà vu also.  What I do is seek if God wants to move the same way in my life to bless me as he did before.  It’s called “Shaking the Tree.”  Shaking the tree is when you go outside your comfort zone in dating.  I went outside my normal comfort zone in placing a single’s ad which worked for me and I met the love of my life and now I’m going outside my comfort zone in attending single socials and online dating.  My comfort zone would be to attend spousal loss groups where other lepers attend.  Lepers are those people who have holes in their hearts like me.  Instead of holes on their flesh we have holes in our hearts which is the loss of people in life.  I’ve lost my parents, my sister and my husband so I have three holes in my heart.  God has restored the loss of my parents and my sister through my in-laws and my sister-in-law is like a sister to me.  


I realize for some people being divorced it is more of a victory in coming out of bondage like Martin Luther King Jr., “I have a dream:  Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"”  For me, I did not ask to be single, it did not come as a free will choice or a free will offering, I enjoyed the many benefits of being married.  I have a dream and that is being in the yoke of happily married life again.


I like the movie Bruce Almighty.  Although it is a crude movie, it illustrates how Bruce comes to the place that he wants the best for the person he loves if that best is without him.  My husband is breathing freely the first time in his life without chronic asthma in a better place that this world can offer.  I've learned to let many people go in my life that I love.  In the movie Bruce offered his zeal/fun nature for life which is what I inherited in death from my husband.  He lived life to the fullest every day and he passed his zeal to me.   It's like a mantle.  Elijah passed his mantle on to Elisha when he died and my husband passed his mantle to me. For, "Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech. 1 Peter 3:10


In this struggle there are a couple of things the Lord laid on my heart, (1) if you don’t want a bitter fish quit fishing in bitter ponds relating to those men who have issues and won’t give up bitterness of what an ex-wife has done to them and (2) can anything good come out of Christian single social groups?  Sometimes I wonder since it did not work for me in the past at 35 years of age when I was divorced in meeting the love of my life, but I believe it is the same as people who asked if anything good comes out of Nazareth.  It was a small hick town Nazareth and maybe you feel like that with Indiana can anything good come out of this Hoosier state Indiana and Christians single socials as far as a potential wonderful husband?


In the meantime, I’m looking for angels in my life and asking God to use me as his angel (messenger) to encourage other sisters in the Lord like Elisabeth was an encouragement for Mary.  As in my dream, singing harmony with a person is not a man that can literally sing with me as much as harmonizing with a person in being like-minded in values, dreams and vision for one’s life in following Jesus Christ.  

then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.  Philip 2:2
Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. 1 Peter 3:8
Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.  Do not be conceited. Romans 12:16


Below is the song that my husband used to sing to me when we were dating and although he was tone deaf and could not sing on key and in the same fashion, I’m looking for another mate that will bring joy to my heart and as I’m a person who will bring him joy.  My husband had a hole in his heart of a failed 13-year marriage and losing a baby to SIDS.  Right now the fish are biting very well on online sites.  During the holidays seems to be the best time to go fishing because people are lonelier.  It's sort of like selling your house.  I found the best time to sell my house was in January since people got their tax returns around March.


Have I Told You Lately, by Jim Van Morrison


Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do

For the morning sun and all its glory
Meets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter, somehow you make it better
Ease my troubles
, that's what you do

There's a love that's defined
And it's yours and it's mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray to the one, to the one

Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do

There's a love that's defined
And it's yours and it's mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray to the one, to the one

And have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
You fill my heart with gladness, take away my sadness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do

Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do
Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do
 



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